Self Compassion through Astrology
All my life I was aware of how easy it was to start something and how difficult it was to do the same things over and over again. At first glance of astrology, you may blame my Gemini sun because sun astrology says Geminis have more unfinished projects than anyone. That was interesting but didn't help. It wasn't until I was in my 30s that I discovered the underlying why and figured out what to do about it.
When I was volunteering for a dog rescue, they asked for help getting into a national pet store chain for adoption events. Others had tried and failed. I went online, found the info, followed the steps, and voilà, we were approved to do adoption events every weekend.
Weekend after weekend after weekend, we hosted adoption events. They were successful and lots of dogs were finding great homes. Each weekend became more and more difficult for me to attend. I started getting headaches, feeling nauseous, and began cancelling which made me feel even worse. It finally got to the point where I had to admit to myself and the head of the dog rescue that I can't do this anymore.
It so happened that the woman that ran the dog rescue also taught Astrology, Tarot, and Mythology. I hadn't known her for long and only had a basic understanding of what she taught. I braced myself as I made the call to let her know I wouldn't be able to attend the events any longer. There was so much need in dog rescue and I didn't want to disappoint her, the dogs or the rescue.
I explained what I was experiencing and said I would no longer be a regular volunteer at the weekly adoption events. I then offered to get some other project up and going for them. The head of the dog rescue immediately replied with, "Oh, you must have a lot of cardinal energy and not a lot of fixed!"
I had no idea what she was talking about, but I was so relieved at her positive response. Later, I went on to learn the meaning of what she said. Cardinal, fixed, and mutable are modes in astrology. We will usually have a predominant mode and a predominant element. From there I was able to develop self compassion and understand my stellar makeup. This led me to figuring out work arounds to "life hack" when I needed to do something over and over again (fixed modality).